Forever and for Always

They cannot be tamed
My thoughts are my empire
My wild streak, my territory

Stories that play out one moment at a time
From the lost, past history
They cannot be owned
they are mine to keep
To torture me

Abandonment I feel so freely
Unlocked and Unashamed
I earned it one hurt at a time
Its all mine too
To always remind me of joys I shall never ever take for granted

My weird odd prayers to no Deity at all
Are my worship to my being
To have survived unseen wars
Dealt to me by fate, when I was oh so young
so very very young
They are for me alone
and no one else

Some random waking moment when I'm suddenly seized by fears unknown
Each time I realize it doesn't happen any more
That tragedy ended a long time ago
That thrill at having lived it through for better or for worse
That reward is worth dying as I did
Its my victory bell to ring for ever and for always.